I can only dream of being as beautiful as this book/movie...

Yes. It's that time again. I'm almost done listening to The Virgin Suicides audio book. Next comes watching the movie. Then reading the hard copy. My obsession is crazy, but calming in a way. I just wish there was more to learn. Nothing is as beautiful as that book. And the movie does a darn good job. (with a few mistakes)

Random, badass, makes no fucking sense but is AWESOME!!!

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Clark Gable by The Postal Service

I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie
So I changed my plans I rented a camera and a van and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again" and you agreed to

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
And I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd

I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?


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I frakin love this band/song/lyrics/story... I find it sadly romantic and have it on my list of things I want to do before I die. Film a scene that explains my feelings on romance. Whatever that means. hah.

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close By Jonathan Safran Foer

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I just finished reading this Monday night, and again am blown away by Jonathan Safran Foer. (He wrote Everything is Illuminated, which I've posted about here before)

Just like Everything is Illuminated, this book can easily make me cray, laugh, reread, want to scream, breaks my heart, rebuilds it back up... all over and over again.

“I pointed her index fingers toward each other and slowly, very slowly, moved them in, the closer they got, the more slowly I moved them, and then, as they were about to touch, as they were only a dictionary page from touching, pressing on opposite sides of the word “love,” I stopped them, I stopped them and held them there. I don’t know what she thought, I don’t know what she understood, or what she wouldn’t allow herself to understand, I turned around and walked away from her, I didn’t look back, I won’t.”


“Humans are the only animal that blushes, laughs, has religion, wages war, and kisses with lips. So in a way, the more you kiss with lips, the more human you are.”

“Songs are as sad as the listener.”

These quotes almost make it seem like an all sad book. But it's truly beautiful. About an odd little boy on a mission after his father is killed in the Sept 11th attacks. I'll leave it at that.. Plus there is still a numbers puzzle in the book that I need to figure out... I love puzzles.

WANT!

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Just another Wed.

Uuugh it's windy out, and I didn't bring a sweater. It's only 10am, and I already want to go home. I could just leave, as my boss is gone, and the female PT sees how bored I am and told me I could go out and do stuff.. But I have to be here at 3 for sure, and I have to pick up my car pool buddy at 5. Maybe I'll leave for lunch early. Go to the Post Office, maybe hit up Longs/CVS and get a few things I need. Meh

For now, I'll sit in my office, with the heater all the way up.. and try not to fall asleep on my keyboard. Maybe watch something online... or read. All I really want it a juice box, a snack, and nap time.

A few pictures to show how awesome we are...

My life...

I got this awesome new app for my phone's camera called Retro Camera. Yeah, how hip of me. I lets me take pictures with 4 different cameras (My favorite being the pin hole one)

So this is my life

1. Marco's apartment

2. Smoke break

3. Soda at work, which I'm cutting down on.

4. Side of my work

5. Out front of my work.

6. Me at work

7. Porch in Sacramento

8. Marco cooking Indian food

9. My boots on Tuesday

Favorite songs, by my favorite bands.. A sharing post :)

In no particular order:



He is Legend -- The Seduction
"Well I'll meet you at the river
where we both can clear our heads
I think we would look great dead."




The Distillers -- City of Angels

Stripped of the right to be a human in control
It's warmer in hell so down we go



Ida Maria -- Queen of the World

Whiskey please, I need some whiskey please
So bring me consciousness and kill my innocence



Phoenix -- 1901

Watch her moving in elliptical patterns
Think it's not what you say, what you say is way too complicated



Sage Francis - Got Up This Morning

Let me spell it out in simple language
Plain English
I want your suicide to be a book of mine that I never finish


I could go on forever...

Cuz I love looking back and seeing how badass it was...

3 of my new favorite pics of myself from Julius Caesar.

First one, I'm back as Zombie Caesar, taking over Strato's body, to kill Brutus.

Second one, during in my very very brutal death scene,

Third one, another where I'm taking over Strato, but I'm listening to Brutus talk and just wanna stab him hah.

These were from preview night I think.. as my shirt isn't that bloody, or my face/neck. By closing I was soaked all over. Oh man do I miss this show... Bloody good fun!

It's my own personal support team. For better or for worse...

Source a doodle I did years ago.

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Source trailer for Being John Malcovich. I love that movie, and it's on my Need To Own list... Ever since seeing it as a teen, I've been obsessed with how *I* believe the movie deals with Dissociative Identity Disorder, with out ever saying it does.

I could write/talk for hours about this topic, and probably just confuse people... but it's so about D.I.D. The scenes were you are looking through John's eyes, but can see the blackness around the eye openings.. haha I didn't realize that not everyone sees the world like that.

There probably will be plenty of posts about these types of topics, as I get closer and closer to my 5 year anniversary in Aug. Sure each year off meds is better and better, though harder, but in a good way. I'm constantly learning what I need to to live, and it's a fantastic journey. But for some reason 5 seems like a solid number. 5 years after 3 years of out of control. 8 years ago I was someone I hardly can recognize now.. But thats always an issue.

I'm rambling. Meh. I just wanna watch BJM again. :)