Book Covers

Some Girls Love Pretty Jewelry, I'll just take Pretty Books.

Now, you may or may not know that reading is one of my favorite things to do. Always has been, my book shelves are full, and I have extra books packed up in both my mother's attic, and my fathers basement. It's not fair that there could be so many books in the world that I want to read, and that I don't have the time to do it.

I can spend hours in a book store, and for a while a few years back, I would just hang out every night for 4 hours or so in Boarders waiting for Todd to get off work next door. The covers are usually what draws me in. I'll read the back of any book with an interesting cover. I fall in love with the images that are used to get a point across with one glance. Crazy obsession? Yes. But I can't help it. Here are a few of my favorites.


The Virgin Suicides. I couldn't actually find this cover at the store when I bought the book, which is sad, but the one I have is still beautiful.



The Bell Jar. I've seen tons of covers for this book in my day, but I held out buying it until I found this cover. I couldn't be happier.



Babyji. I can't remember if I bought this, or if a friend gave it to me. But it's amazing and the cover... is gorgeous.

Warming up this cold Tuesday morning...

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Happy Chinese New Year!

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Source: And I'm going to wake up on time and rested!

So my coworkers tell me that it's Chinese New Year, and whatever you do today, or this week maybe it is... will determine what your whole new year will be like. So, I've decided to go with it. I woke up on time and wasn't too tired. I started to organize my art, into what i need to go to finish something, and how to finish them, and I am having a good day, I'm going to be happy.

So I hope you all have a great day, today can change the year for you. So try not to get angry, or sick or procrastinate, as you will then be doing that for the rest of the year! ;)

Deviant Art Round Up.

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Source: "It's love, make it hurt"

Too Cute To Eat.

So I'm in love with this website Geekologie. I've been reading for a week or so now, after a coworker stumbled upon the gummy bear chandelier.. And now I'm searching through all the old entries since everything is SO COOL! Enjoy kids, prepared to be amazed!
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Art for a Rainy Day...

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The United States of Tara. My new favorite Show.

Holy Crap, have you seen this show yet? Have you heard of it? Well why not?!? Haha. Okay seriously, if you give any new show a chance, I suggest you do so with this one. The United States of Tara, staring Toni Collette. You know her, the mom from Six Sense, she was also in one of my favorite movies Velvet Goldmine. She is amazing. This show really shows her range and as this show is about something very close to me, D.I.D. (Dissociative Identity Disorder)

Tara is a house wife, with a loving husband, a rebellious teenage daughter (only 15, but good god), a sweet but misunderstood son, and a crappy job. As every single one of you know, life is effing hard sometime. How does Tara deal? Well, she dissociates, her alters being Alice, a perfect model wife, who wants respect and to be in charge of everything, Buck, a biker dude, who smokes and gets into fights, but would do anything for those he cares about, and T, a 15 year old trying to live in a 30 somethings body... She smokes pot, shops a lot, and dresses like a slut.

Every single alter she plays is their own person, and she does this amazingly well. When you see the stress building up in her, and she dissociates, those of us that know what that's like, or have seen it happen to someone, could stand up and scream "YES! That's how I feel!" It's beautiful.

The show is getting some negative slack too. People don't think a show about D.I.D. could be interesting (how could it not!?) or that as it's got a comedy streak in it, that it's downplaying D.I.D. which happens after childhood abuse. (sexual, physical, mental, emotional) I do not find any of their points really valid after watching the shows first two episodes. I think the family dynamic of living with a mom that is not always 'mom', is terrific. Not everyone with D.I.D. is on medication, and not everyone believes in integration, hell I don't. Yes it can be funny, but life in general is funny at times, even with a disorder.

It's really worth checking out. It gets my heart racing, my mind spinning, and I want to share it with everyone. I hope it keeps going for a while, because I am hooked.

It's on Showtime, and they allow you to watch episodes there (at least the first one). Here is the IMDB page for it.

LOST (Don't worry, non spoilery!)

Okay, I watched LOST season 1 and 2 on DVD years back trying to prepare for the next season. I fell in love. I ended up having to miss most of the last few seasons though, catching one or two here and there. No big whoop. I don't mind spoilers personally, as I will watch it eventually. (I'm known to ask people how they liked movies they just saw, and what was the ending.. I don't care, I don't expect some big surprise. I read the last page of a book when I get it. Yeah I know it's cheating, but I wanna know HOW they get to that point)

So last night they played an hour catch up episode, which helped me a lot... then the next hour I was GLUED to my TV. It ended and as always I said "wtf?! I want more!" But there was an extra hours worth! Hot Damn! (though i missed pretty much the first half hour of the 2nd half... I was still watching!)

I just gotta say, this show rocks. It's really good and intriguing.. Makes you pissed off as you hardly ever get answers, but it just keeps getting more interesting and fun. I own season 1, and really should stock up on the rest of the seasons.

If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. Go buy the dvds, or rent them. whatever. DO IT.

Okay, there is my LOST happy rant. :)

Vices: We all have them. Some of mine.

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Source: Kurt Halsey. <3 Love


Source: That's John John Jesse, he's one of my favorite artists. Smoking/Drinking

Mornin'!

Source: this is cute. I love miniture things, I love fake food... It's just so adorable.


Source: I saw this in one of my Juxtapoz magazines. I cut it out and put it on my wall. It's got some very interesting colors and textures to it.


Source: That face! Those eyes! That hair! :)

Gathering Up

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Happy Inauguration Day!

You all should know by now that I am a HUGE Obama supporter. And today I woke up with that same sort of nerves and excitement that I did on election day. Only this time... with a little less fear. :)

Since I'm at work today I plan on streaming the inauguration online (Live105 is doing a radio stream, and CNN has this video/facebook stream going on... that's probably where I will be watching!)

I hope you all get a chance to watch/listen/read about it. I'm ever so excited!

Worn Out, Tired, Beaten and Cold...

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I'm freezing... wrapped up in the warmest, softest gloves and scarf, of my favorite color.. that i just got, and freezing. goodness! I can't wait for the summer time.

Hope some of you have today off to rest and watch bad tv and not to a thing. I'm at work, and already longing for my comfortable bed back home. For the time at night when I can turn my brain off and just, melt away.

Here's lookin at you, kid.

School of Jesus Fish, reopening!

Our original flyer, designed by the fabulous Rob Dario.
Dr. Simon being a jerk to Anne (hey that's me!) He always wanted to just shut me up.

Anne's "Last Supper" if you will, if pills and water can be a supper.

Irma (Gabby), Debra/Shea (Jen), Dr. Ben (Matt), and Anne (me) goofing off backstage.

So this past fall I was in the amazing play School of Jesus Fish. This was the best show I've ever been a part of. I played Anne, sorta the lead role (score one for me!) and the show was awesome. Not only did every cast member click so well together, but the show was great. The writer even came out to see us perform, and we got quite the media buzz in the Bay Area.

Quick synopsis of the show:
Dr. Benjamin Hamilton's first patient as a therapist at St. Lucy's psychiatric ward is Anne Fencik, a woman who claims she is a prophet -- God's daughter on earth -- perhaps the "second coming." As Dr. Hamilton seeks to cure her, Ann's presence begins to have startling effects on the other psychiatric patients. Is their sudden recovery a result of a psychiatric breakthrough, or of Anne's healing?

Characters:

• Dr. Benjamin Hamilton: Mid-20s. New, uncertain.
• Franny: bi-polar, rapid and impatient
• Dr. Simon Piletti: Upside of forty. A gentle man when things are going his way, but no question he is in charge.
• Anne Fencik: delusional (?) but quite lucid.
• Irma: obsessive-compulsive with schizophrenic tendencies
• Karen Fishback: ex-musician, suffers from periodic visual hallucinations
• Debra: diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder
• Sam: 20 years old and tormented by auditory hallucinations
• Shea Fishback: sister of Karen. Professional musician

The show was extremely difficult for us doing it, hitting some strong subjects. Religion and mental disorders. And allowed the audience to make it's own decisions on if I was crazy, or really some sort of profit from god. Many of us in the show have had our lives touched by someone (if not ourselves) with some sort of mental illness, and that can make a very rough and emotional time during rehearsals and performances. We were all so very supportive of each other, and I hope most if not all of the original cast can come back for this reopening of our wonderful show.

Wed Round Up...

Lithium Picnic has been one of my favorite photographers since I was about 16 years old. You may of seen his many photographs of Apnea and other (ex mostly) Suicide Girls. Or know about the crazy legal battle that went on between the two of them and SG.
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I think I mostly like this image because it's so empowering to women. I imagine it's a crazy sexy hot Fight Club for girls... with kick ass shoes! :)

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"By Any Means Available (After Charlotte Perriand)" 2005
cardboard, paper, plastic, magazine clippings, mixed media -Stephanie Syjunco

made a while ago but only now just photographed for better documentation. to be included in the show "This End Up" at the San Jose Museum of Art, opening in November.

I find this piece to be extremely beautiful. Now of course, some of you may be saying.. "That's a bunch of boxes.. and colors, that's nothing.. I can do that!" And yeah that may be true, but it really gets me inside. Really. It conveys my emotions, makes me think. And that's what I really look for in art.
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I was home sick from work yesterday, so sorry for the lack of a post. Today I am back in action again though! Here is a round up of a few interesting and intriguing work I've stumbled upon. Enjoy.

So I moved.

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I'm now a resident of Fairfield, CA again. The town I grew up in, lived most of my life, and tried to escape for years. But ya know what... I'm okay with being back. I'm an adult now, a real one, not a newly-adult adult... not knowing how to be an adult. I'm glad with my decision... First post of the day... Of the week... Of my new residency... Of my new chapter... More images that reflect my feelings as of right now. Enjoy kids. :)

Camera Phone Goodies

1. Yesterday as I work on getting my script and voice ready to be the narrator for our work instructional videos.
2. Sitting outside the office on my break. There are so many leaves falling today. It's totally raining leaves like crazy!
3. The ridiculous hi-tops I got for X-Mas. they are so ridic it's crazy.

Spot Light: Up and Comers. Mixi

I Miss Those Days (Ghost) - Mixi

Do any of your watch Fuse? It's quickly becoming one of my favorite channels. And if you know me, then you know I have a weakness for bad reality TV. I've watched a little of everything, and stumbled upon a show called Redemption Song. At first I was pretty put off by it. 'Bad' girls trying to change their image to be taken seriously, and win a the chance for a record deal to make it big. Wait... bitchy girls, booze, cussing, music.. why wouldn't I like this show?!? Haha. Anyway, it was a wonderful show, and as the weeks went by I found I was getting more and more attached to the underdog. Mixi.

Her style was very much her own, which I love. Mixing hair colors, tattoos and dark eye make up, with her jazzy soulful voice, and playful attitude. I was hooked. Luckily for me, Mixi won the whole kit and caboodle, and I was there glued to my tv, squealing for her victory and buying her first real song "I Miss Those Days (Ghost)" from Itunes. And the video, super adorable! She's so cute!

Her myspace is here, and last night she had a Stickam chat going where she was answering questions and just being herself. I had some issues with my webcam and couldn't get it up and running but think I got it fixed now, so I plan to join in on Monday when she'll be back.

The thing is, she's just so real. She's a real girl that went through some hell, just like anyone else. Last night in the chat she smoked a cigarette and said "not to tell her family". Just like a normal person, and even tried to borrow a beer from a neighbor. She giggled, and smiled and was really enjoying that connection with her fans. I really recommend you give her a chance. She warms my heart.